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Apr. 21st, 2019 06:02 pm
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BAD week. Colleen is in the hospital again, with damaged kidneys and multiple severe drug-resistant infections. She slipped getting back into bed Monday morning, after getting weaker all the previous week. It's pretty dire this time. V and I have been there every day.

N came up Thursday afternoon, and the kids and their SOs came up yesterday. It's that serious. See updates. I'm redacting almost all of the medical details in the notes; it'll go into the next Colleen update, with a content warning. Look for that tonight or tomorrow.

She's been delirious and mostly non-verbal from the infections and her wacked-out blood chemistry; the last coherent thing she said yesterday was "I want my Bear." All I could do was hold her hand, but that seemed to be enough.

N and I have decided to make this year's Rainbow Con a celebration for Colleen. She will almost certainly still be in rehab at that point, in which case we'll record and/or stream it. Come, if you can.

Notes & links, as usual )

I should post this.

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Today's song is one I wrote as a Valentine's Day present for my wife, Colleen. I don't seem to have audio up on the web; I considered singing it to her earlier today, but one look at the lyrics told me I wouldn't be able to. It's hard to sing when you're crying.

Here's Eyes Like the Morning. Audio at the link, or [ogg] [mp3]

lyrics, if you don't want to click through )

_Goblin Emperor_ on sale!

Apr. 20th, 2019 03:49 pm
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The acclaimed _Goblin Emperor_ is on sale for 1.99! The link below includes lots & lots of sites & formats.

This book is so good, I read it twice in the same year. Compelling world-building, & one of the kindest main characters ever. *insert incoherent, euphoric squee-ing here*

Well, that takes care of reading matter for my next flight.

*heads off to share the love*

River: Update 2 on Colleen

Apr. 18th, 2019 06:41 pm
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Colleen took a turn for the worse yesterday between breakfast, which she nibbled at, and lunch, by which time she was very "out of it" and apparently in pain (although I think some of that may have been pure frustration when she couldn't find words.

Apparently a severe infection can have that effect, and can strike quickly -- this is apparently a lot like toxic shock. She has at least three highly-resistant superbugs -- they identified the third this morning.

The kids are coming to visit Saturday -- the soonest they could get here.

Colleen is a stubborn old cat, though. Wish her luck.

A weekly reminder...

Apr. 17th, 2019 07:41 am
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... my GoFundMe is still active, because we're still going to need a lot to cover the incoming repair and medical bills. (what is it with hospitals sometimes taking literal MONTHS to send the bill? Just got one in yesterday from mid-December!)

TV writers

Apr. 17th, 2019 03:00 am
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Catching up on TV programs. An episode of NCIs had a whole of stupid errors.

It had them on a nuclear sub. Somebody had sent false orders to the sub. This was supposedly done by somebody adding a device to the connections to the subs antennas. That made it ignore actual Navy signals and only accept ones from somebody else.

Ok, theoretically possible. The problem is that they had the bad guy sending orders to the sub while it was submerged.

They got the fact that that requires ELF (Extremely Low Frequency) signals. There are several problems with that. The transmitters require antennas hundreds of miles long. The Navy's transmitter uses a good chunk of Michigan.

Second problem. The low frequency means that the transmission rate is measured in characters per *minute*. So the messages sent are *short* code groups. Which absolutely blows the plot.

A *critical* bit of the plot involves a last minute message to the sub and they make a big deal about "proper formatting" of the message, Alas, in the real world, the message would be two to 3 code groups (one to Id which sub it was for and the other one or two groups would be something to look up in the code book on the sub)

So there wouldn't be any "formatting". And it wouldn't be "last minute". It'd take several minutes to send maybe as much as 10 minutes.

Also, the bad guy wouldn't have been able to send the *detailed* orders the sub got while it was submerged. One of the code groups is *known* to be "surface to receive detailed orders".

and of course, the bad guy couldn't have sent ELF signals anyway.

Ice Cream!!!

Apr. 17th, 2019 02:02 am
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A few weeks back I was looking to indulge a little. so I went browsing the ice cream isle at the store. Much to may annoyance they still don't have spumoni. There's another flavor they seem to have discontinued, but I can't remember what it was.

But I did find a couple new flavors. I got the Signature Select Mango sherbert. It's great. I got a silly idea and tried it on the marked down apple pie I'd bought to share with [personal profile] fayanora. It's actual a *good* combination.

Today I went back and got the other new flavor, Blood Orange Cream. It's a good vanilla ice cream with swirls of blood orange "goop" running thru it.

Also very good. Alas, being Tillamook brand it's not cheap. I'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts.

Update on Colleen

Apr. 16th, 2019 05:09 pm
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Yesterday (Monday) she fell trying to go from her walker to the bed -- got herself into an awkward position and seemed confused when I tried to tell her how to get out of it. Rather than simply having the EMTs put her back in bed we decided to use the opportunity to get her to the ER and have her looked at. Which turned out to have been the right thing to do.

She's not doing all that well; but doesn't seem to be in immediate danger. Medical info under the cut. )

She'll almost certainly end up back in rehab again after she's discharged. I'm very worried about the mental confusion and the weakness, although getting more oxygen into her seems to have helped.

I'm not getting a damned thing done on $GIG the last few days; that's probably not surprising but is a matter for concern.

Ways to live your life

Apr. 15th, 2019 10:22 pm
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Thinking about the vaccination arguments and other things brought to mind Kant's "Categorical Imperative".

One way to state it amounts to "what would happen if *everyone* took the action you want to take?"

Apply that to vaccination, and the answer is starkly obvious.

In other cases it's not so obvious, but only because people tend to limit their thinking.

A lot of arguments about religion only make sense from the viewpoint of the dominant religion. If you change the premise from we don't want *their* religion thrown in our face to "we don't want *any* religion thrown in our face, then applying the Imperative will make the followers of the majority religion in the area *really* uncomfortable.If not outraged.

Similar things apply to a lot of racial, gender and sexuality issues.

On another topic, I was watching an episode of NCIS (I'm way behind on watching them) and a late teens (about to graduate high school) character had something they'd worked all summer for destroyed by a disapproving parent.

This is one of number of parent/child relationship/behavior things that *really* annoys me. Especially since in this case it wasn't anything that it was *wrong* to have, just something for an activity the parent didn't want the kid involved in (dancing).

There is something *very* wrong with a world where parents can destroy something like that and *not* be liable for restitution.

The whole idea that children don't have property rights is morally and ethically questionable.

Likewise all the arguments about parents restricting things their kids are allowed to learn, much less some medical decisions.

Your right to control your child ends at the point where it could harm them. Failing to get them treatment for illness is an obvious case. Vaccinations are less obvious.

Keeping them ignorant or worse teaching them things counter to reality is even less obvious but frankly it can be just as damaging. Not just things like alternate "theories" to evolution, but also things like no sex ed, or abstinence-only sex-ed.

If I was dictator, you could teach your kids creationism, etc, but they'd still have to pass science classes that *weren't* forced to cater to your religious views.

And something like Dutch (or is it Danish) sex ed classes that start in kindergarten by teaching about healthy relationship would be required too.

Do It To Yourself

Apr. 15th, 2019 08:38 pm
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Friends, I'd like to talk to you about elitism.

Around the world, there are professional organizations such as the A.M.A., the B.M.A., and the C.M.A. -- respectively, the American, British, and Canadian Medical Associations. The Bundesärztekammer, or B.Ä.K.; that is, the German Medical Association. These, and other groups around the world, work to restrict terms such as "Medical Doctor" and "Doctor of Medicine" to those privileged few who not only have the means to attend medical school, but also are lucky enough to graduate.

But friends, you don't have to meekly accept this situation. You can push back. You have the power in your hands... and in your keyboards.

Do It To Yourself
(© Joel Polowin, 2019; TTO: "Do It Yourself" by Bill Sutton)

I went to see my doctor, and she told me with alarm
The surgery I wanted would just do me awful harm
So I turned to my computer, and I learned without regret
That you can be a doctor with the stuff that's on the net

    A.M.A., B.M.A., C.M.A., and W.H.O.
    B.Ä.K. and M.S.F. and others you may know
    The medical monopoly, they want you to forget
    That you can be a doctor with the stuff that's on the net

The first step is diagnosis, diagnosis is a breeze
'Cause Doctor Google helps identifying your disease
You just type in ev'ry symptom you might be concerned about
Then click "I'm Feeling Lucky", and you've got what it spits out

You might be wanting bloodwork, though getting it's a pain
There's lots of information lurking there inside your veins
So go log in to FaceBook, and click the links therefrom:
There's experts standing by to help at

And then there's medications, you can buy them all on-line
And in practically no time, they'll have you feeling fine
Read through all the testimonials and what they say to do
'Cause if they worked for someone else, they must be good for you

Another thing a doctor needs is radiology
For that you'll need a source of radioactivity
Kijiji and Freecycle let you get your hands on some:
A bunch of dying smoke detectors' americium

If you want to do some surgery, you need make no mistake
With Doctor YouTube there to show you ev'ry move to make
Start out with warts and hangnails, then get a cordless drill
'Cause autotrepanation's good for showing off your skill [bzzzzz!]

Last you'll need to have diplomas before you can be done
From sev-er-al pres-tig-ious on-line in-sti-tu-ti-ons
With a bunch of them up on your wall and more upon your shelf
You've ev'rything you need to be in practise for yourself

A few notes...


Second: As of this writing, there is no "". "MeetRealVampires", though, yes.

Third: Smoke detectors and their americium are not the most effective/efficient really stupidly dangerous way to get your hands on radioactive material. A good candidate for that questionable distinction might involve "FiestaWare". I will leave the details to the interested student, and strictly disavow any responsibility.

Fourth: Trepanation, or trepanning, refers to drilling a hole in someone's skull -- a necessary part of many forms of brain surgery, treatment of hydrocephalus, not to mention demon eviction. Autotrepanation (AKA autotrephanation) is the process of drilling one's own skull. Bzzzzz! And yes, there have been YouTube videos.

Done Since 2019-04-07

Apr. 14th, 2019 08:47 pm
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Worried about Colleen. She seems to be getting worse, not better. I'm don't know what I should do. No idea what I can do. She's declining, and I'm scared. No idea what the fuck is going to happen when I go off to my 50th reunion in June.

I had a great time Monday doing a back-yard archaeology dig with N and (her younger kid) j. We actually found a few things, which made it a lot more exciting.

I finally managed to get the little yellow GL-iNet router configured as a wifi-to-ethernet bridge for the printer. That turns out to be tricky if you want both ends to be part of the same network. It's even pretty tricky if you don't. I am, however, finding my way around OpenWrt, the more versatile (and more up-to-date) of the two aftermarket Linux distributions for routers. I'm now working on the somewhat more ambitious project of setting up a bridge to the Box Room, using the Linksys WNDR4300 I ordered from eBay on Monday. That seems to be going a little more smoothly.

I ran the numbers on next year's taxes. Turns out I can reduce my withholding by over $1K/month. That will help a lot.

Pretty much done incorporating the editor's suggestions into $GIG; now I have to get the rest of it -- about the last third -- finished.

I really just want to crawl into a hole and hide until things get better. But I know that if I do that, they never will.

Notes & links, as usual )

Song from Utanmyra

Apr. 12th, 2019 06:29 pm
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I haven't written much lately, and those songs I did write were a bit varied in quality or were quite narrow in their topics. But here is an English translation of a Swedish folk song and jazz standard: Visa från Utanmyra (notation), with modern lyrics by Björn Lindroth, written in 1963 and most famously recorded by Monica Zetterlund (Youtube).

Content warning: the song is about rape and rape culture.

Only one time I saw that man )

Right now my translation has focused on faithfulness to the original, and I'd be happy to receive comments, both on singability and the appropriateness of some of the lyrics.

The tune itself is known from the 18th century, as Olof von Dalin wrote a set of lyrics to the tune then. That one is wholly unrelated to Lindroth's text.
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1961-04-12 Yuri Gagarin is first human in space.

Thankful Thursday

Apr. 11th, 2019 06:49 pm
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Today I am thankful for...

  • having filed my tax return;
  • some simple what-if tax calculations that tell me I can cut my withholding in half this year;
  • Colleen's health improving (at least in terms of her kidney numbers; still very worried about the rest);
  • our cats, especially Desti, who loves being a villain's lap cat;
  • maybe OpenWrt and dd-wrt (the two major embedded Linux distributions for routers -- the former seems more hackable, the latter seems easier to configure for what I'm doing with them -- but neither of them is doing what I want it to).

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